My PicZz....not much 2 say....I got into a new sch......so boring there!! got first sch trip on monday.....fucking canoeing~ i REFUSE!! hahaha....met sum nice ppl in Yr 12....da girls Ar soOoOoooo.....Pretty~ Im like da Ugly DuckLiNg.......So UGLY!!!!!  WHY ME!!!! Anyways HiYa Dane....I will try n chat wif u online tonite!! kk?!!!! Saw my dad this week~ He is CRaZY~ didnt spk to sam today YET~ Hope he calls me!!! heeheee...Oh i saw Cool Xanga....www.xanga.com/pizza dis GuRl Loves PIZZA~!!! hahaha.....Wicked....dat xanga is all about PIZZA~ my favourite!! I salute u~! Anyways oh got reply of Ryan...cool~ so fuckd dat i didnt see him....!!! nvm....tml i gotta day off from everything!~ today after work i had to go to da library...for my ART~" Picked up like 10 Books On Picasso for my portrait project~ i think i will focus on da "Blue Period"~ haha.....VvV.....interesting!! i must of looked like such a weirdo shopping wif so many books~!! Like an A* student~ hahaha YEah Rite~ more like F~ hahaha~~ My HuNnY MaGgIe....has lost 5 teeth now~ Poor!! feel so sorry for her! My brother went back to London Today! n my boss at work tried to set me up wif sum STUPID boy.....he is like 17 but looks 12~ he is a complete geek~ he has da weirdest name too....Urrr~!! i hate working...!!!!  YEAH!!!! I MISS SAM I MISS SAM I MISS SAM!!!......Anyways Enuf Chat time to rest~!!

WoOoWoW....My mood is so different now....heheheee i feel like da happiest GuRl in da whole World.....How can my week be so perfect wen most things went sooooo wrong~??  heeheeee.......SAM~'' so i have been away for 1 week...went to school...first day i was soooooo happIe saw StEpH first in Chester.....came to pick me up wif her bf~ Actually i expected him to be a dick......but he is CoOL...better than da otha one she used to like~!! haha..So went to Jakes Party dat nite~ Didnt see him for ages.....so good to see him n everyone was there....da ppl i missed soooooo much....!! Dane...Ben..Jake...Steph...!! I spoke 2 Hanz for most of da nite....at that point 1/2 pissed n soooooo UNhappy~ but she is really godd to talk to....n so full of helpful advice..so tHx!! hahaha......So Guess whaT? then Sam Came tooooo........!!?? huh........???  OH shit~ Fuck then wot cud i say....Surprise....I DIDNT need to say anything....coz he ignored me!  I cudnt believe it.......GuttEd or WOt??!! Anyways the nite went on...etc etc Ben Threw beer in my hair.......!!!!? I will kill him nxt time i c him BEN im gonna get u back!!! haha.....i was fucked so fucked i cudnt even walk~ the worst i have been in like 1/2 yr......so then i cant remember anything....apart from in da morning~ Cant believe that UmMmMmmm......hahaha~ Anyways....Next day....Went to eat lunch wif steph then was sick everywhere...!! Went to stephs bf hse....n at da end of da day steph went home~ i went to my hotel in ruthin...n fell asleep at 5pm till da nxt day~ Then wOt happened.........HE txt ME...can i believe it???.....heheeeheehe ...so went out in his car I think~! Im so happie that i cud spend so much time wif him~ Then da next day n everyday saw each other...Spent one whole day In Bed..???How LAZY????.....went to Cinema to watch "The Village".....actually da film was quite shit maybe coz da monsters hahaha were not real n neither was da village.....kinda confusing that film ( maybe coz im StUpId)!!! but anyways i LoveD it......coz i neva went 2 cinema wif him b4 or did anything ....hehehee feels soooo sweet~!!!! AlwayZz eat PizzA wif him~ Also he is always Zzzing in his car always in different car parkZz n going to get food in TesCo at like 2am....!! haha....always go to Mc Donalds n i thought da ppl i know are vVv CraZy n Stupid but...i think his frdZ ar much worse..!! Always eat PizZa Or Macdonalds...so da stomach is split into 2 sections..! Listen to Usher in his car...my favourite song!! heehee....i bought his album coz dat song reminds me of HIM!!!   Everything Is FuckiNg GreAt!!! actually better than great.....coz i feel so happy wif him......!!! like i got no problems...Although my exam results were shit....n da rest of my family hate me (oh PS...i Hate my BROTHER) im still happie coz of Sam.....he really makes me smile all da time....coz he is soooooooooooooo SILLY~!  I like lying nxt to him in bed n huggin him n laughing at him......"n Yeh K WhTeva" I just like being wif him..n wen it comes to telling him how much i really like him n wot i wud really like to do to be wif him all da time....I cANt - i feel like a dick~ how am i meant to tell someone that dumped me after a month that i like him more than my ex- da one i went out wif 4 3yrs....????....ummmMmmM nevermind for now~ i really dunno wot to say to him.....all i know is dat im in my HAPPIEST mood wen im wif him~! n now i miss him soOoOooOoooo much.....!!!!! i really will c him SOON...i will try my BeSt!!!  ALL i know is dat he is PeRfEcT~ hahahahahaha

I FEEL.........really shit today~ i was meant to be happie....my daddy came 2 see me...so i guess thats good ^__^ he looks so different so it was really weird~ We went out as a "family" to eat....it was crazy...but there was no arguing which was good~! I was asked da usual Q's..."what was ur report like"....well dad which one??...coz uve missed da last 4~* Then my Stupid brother...brings up Sam....in conversation~ so im like Steven shut da fuck up.....n then he was being a complete prick....so i had to explain that HE broke up wif me last week...n my mum is like "when"..."why"...."why didnt u tell me"....101 Q's about summit i didnt even wanna talk about~ ive bin ok these past few dayz....n today i feel like shit again n cant stop thinking about him~.....n i downloaded da pics.....n there ar sum wif him~~ how bad is dat~!!!?? I miss him!!...n now im really thinkin bout not going to jakes.....wont i feel even worse seein him...?? its fine for him....coz i know hes fine about everythin now.....he didnt even like me dat much anyways.....so while hes ok im not~ n he doesnt give a shit.....just about himself n dats true coz he aint made any effort in tryin 2 talk 2 me......i smoked for da first time in a month today..dats really shit...coz i know i shudnt... i just wanna cry~ I HATE LIFE......i wud rather be DEAD~ FuCkInG Pk LiFe